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On the Precipice

On the Precipice

As I stand on the precipice of 2012, I find that my entire life is changing as rapidly as my body is altering its form, yet I do not fear a thing. Part of it might be due to the crisp air swathing these Smoky Mountains like gauze or the smell of wood smoke permeating this tiny cabin tucked against the rocky cleft. Part of it might be from the warm sourdough bread bowls filled with creamy Thai soup or the hot chocolate whose chips have been melted and milk frothed on the stove just like grandma used to do. Part of this peace might come from the lack of outside interference: no Internet, TV only for movies like Little Women or Romeo & Juliet, cell phone reception only if you remain outside. Part of it might be due to my daughter who is unfurling inside my womb like a flower, and I can feel every brush of her tiny petal hands against the stems of my ribs. Part of it might be due to the absence of my precious husband and how that absence only solidifies my love for him and for our growing family.

No matter what is causing this peace to reside in my heart even as I am standing at the beginning of the New Year — a new year that, in a few short weeks, is going to bring with it the overwhelming beauty of motherhood — I am tremendously grateful. My only hope as this year ventures forth is that I give it everything I have. That I do not allow these 365 days to slip into the void without reaching out to others and reaching beyond myself. That I do not allow the gifts I have been bestowed to become tarnished by lack of use. That I love with every fiber within my spirit and forgive with every morsel of my flesh. That I quench my tongue when I want to scald someone with a sarcastic reply. That I dig deeper into what it means to die even while I live. That I become a better wife, a better mother (although I do not know what being a mother entails), a better daughter, and a better friend.

So, I challenge you to step away from yourself and step away from it all, to be alone with the creation and with the Creator, to unplug from the Internet, from the TV, from your smart phones and your iPods. Allow a bubbling stream or the piercing cry of a red-tailed hawk to be your only interference and see where this year — where this life — is destined to take you. When you come back down out of the mountain and reenter the hustle and bustle of the daily nine-to-five, you will see everything with a clearer vision than you had before, and you will see the people around you and the stories that have haunted and changed their lives with a purer, more patient intent than you have before.

Step away from it all; step outside of yourself and see what beckons to your soul from just over that crisp, mountainous horizon.

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What changes are you hoping to make in 2012?

How did you usher in the New Year: with a party or quiet and contemplation?

Here’s the book I recommend to start these 365 days off right: Praying for Strangers

Comments

  • Great post, Jolina. Your descriptions are always so rich that I feel as if I can see what you're writing. This post is no exception. I spent my New Years Day quietly at home with my family. I cooked, read and went through/purged stuff at home. It was a good day. Relaxing and nice without leaving the house at all. Happy New Year, Jolina!

    January 2, 2012
  • I'm definitely the quiet contemplative type…and most of my changes are like yours… to fully appreciate life and give it all I have. I love your resolutions, beautifully said. And you must be getting incredibly excited for that baby girl to arrive! Happy New Year indeed!

    January 2, 2012
  • Your New Year Day sounds just wonderful, Leah. So glad you could spend it with your precious family. Hope that 2012 continues to fill your life with joy. Hugs.

    January 2, 2012
  • I think next year's New Year will be even quieter, Julia, as our daughter will probably be tucked in long before the clock strikes twelve. I cannot wait! Who needs to see the ball drop? 🙂

    January 2, 2012
  • Whoops. Reposting:

    Not only do you inspire me, you make the world a better, lovelier and grander place to be. Love this post!!

    Love,
    Paige

    January 2, 2012
  • Whoops. Reposting:

    Not only do you inspire me, you make the world a better, lovelier and grander place to be. Love this post!!

    Love,
    Paige

    January 2, 2012
  • You make the world a more beautiful place, too, my dear Paige. So glad I got to see you the other week; I hope our paths will cross again before too long. Hugs to you.

    XXOO,
    Jolina

    January 2, 2012
  • Oh this is inspiring. I'll admit I'm somewhat of a cynic when it comes to new years and resolutions. It's just another day right? But lately I've been feeling like things are appearing a little more full of promise and why fight that? Thanks for the post 🙂

    January 2, 2012
  • Don't think of this as a resolution post, Sara, just as encouragement. 🙂 It's a huge reminder for me as well.

    January 3, 2012
  • Hello sweet girl! I just love reading your work…whether it's your funny pieces or the touching ones like this one. You have the most amazing voice! Get that novel done so I can read it…

    On that note, thanks for inspiring me to remember to be grateful for the little things, even when the big things seem overwhelming. xoxo

    January 3, 2012
  • Thanks for the writing encouragement, Stephanie; I'm getting there one baby step at a time! 🙂 I am so glad this was able to remind you about the beauty of little things. From that adorable picture of your children at Christmas, I say your “little things” are treasures indeed!

    Happy New Year!

    January 3, 2012
  • Oh—what a beautiful post and how true that always been “connected” really disconnects us from what's important.

    January 3, 2012
  • What a lovely way to put it, Nina. Thanks for stopping by!

    January 4, 2012
  • This post is so beautiful, Jolina. It made me feel peaceful just reading your lovely, restful words. Getting out into nature is one of the best ways to reconnect with our deepest selves, isn't it?
    You'll find that when your dughter is born you will know how to be a mom. Never fear…you're going to be great at it!

    January 4, 2012
  • Yes, it is good to take time to step away from the hustle and bustle, and reflect, recharge and just be. I grew up in the Pacific Northwest, spending three months of every year camping with my parents. They instilled a deep love for our wild areas.

    Your New Year sounds a delight. Quiet, natural beauty, time to think and reflect. Happy New Year, Jolina.

    January 4, 2012
  • I think a lot of the world's problems could be solved if people would just take an hour a day and walk or sit in the undisturbed quiet, Cynthia. Thank you for your kind words regarding motherhood. We put Adelaide's crib together last night, and it just brings the reality of it all swooping in. It's astoundingly beautiful and terrifying at the same time.

    January 4, 2012
  • Three months camping, Cecelia–what a wonderful family tradition! I'm hoping our family can do something like that as well, for I want little Addie to love the outdoors as much as her father and I do.

    January 4, 2012
  • You never cease to amaze me, woman. This post is beautiful is so, so many ways. Your imagery is like looking at a photograph: ” … brush of her tiny petal hands against the stems of my ribs…”

    I, too, look forward to these kinds of contemplative, soul-infused days in 2012. We welcomed the new year with fondue and friends (and lots of bubbly). You will be a fabulous mother – especially when baby girl learns to see the world through your appreciative, hungry eyes.

    January 7, 2012
  • Fondue and friends sounds delightful, Melissa, and I hear ya…let's usher in the New Year with contemplative, soul-infused days. I'm sure each will hold wonders galore! XX

    January 9, 2012

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